heyyy,

wow i havent written in this thing for so long. sorry guys.well my lifes been basically the same.....been hanging out with friends and that whole deal.nothing unusual..or new.i guess i am on myspace alot more , i dont know. anyway...today is lovely out isnt it?...NOT ..its like kinda chilly but muggy at the same time..and its pooring. i guess i havent cared about updating cause no one barely reads it aside from a few loyal readers..lol..no one loves my anymore...or maybe i just have a boring life and nothing to write about and i keep ranbling like i am now..ok i am done. ...sooo......um hung out with steph and christine last night.....just relaxed then eventually went to tamis for a little bit....tonight i have no clue what plans are ..might be hanging out with them again..who knows though. alright well i promise i will try and keep up to date with this..and hey maybe ill even have fun or new and exiting things to tell you..but dont get your hopes up..i wouldnt count on it if i was you..lol.jk.ok until next time.....

<3marybeth

hey i think its about time for me to update , its been awhile. i need to add some pics or atleast talk about something remotely interesting cause no one reads this page anymore or comments..nothing..i have no friends....same with myspace thingy......lol.Well this week felt soo loong( i know i say that about every week , but it was!)We had our baby project in child psychology this week it was cute the first 3 days after that it just got so annoying.St patty's day was yesterday , but i didnt party which i am sure most ppl did..that would explain why no one was in school today they were all hung over and tired.Well todays friday thank god! I have no idea what my plans are for tonight..i dont usually know until later on so we'll see. Tomorrow  i have plans might go lazor tagging..lol..wow i am gonna suck definately....it should be fun though.Next week is spring break..which was cut down from a week now to just off thurs fri...of course the weekend and then that monday after easter.pretty gay if you ask me!alright well maybe i'll get some help to post pics so u have somethng to look at when u come to my site. Until next time......

<3MaryBeth

today was the most beat day ever. school felt like an eternity.....i dont feel good i have a head  cold, my nose is stuffed up to my brain, my eyes keep tearing cause i keep getting the sensation to sneeze, i looked like crap today...it just wasnt an attractive day for me at all..oh and i forgot one thing..and my voice is all nasally and gross.I have cramps...throughout my whole body.As you can imagine i feel just dandy. i need some cheering up.

heyy,

wow looking back on that last entry...pretty depressing...its only been a couple days..but i am not too bad. Last night was steph and tami's play..it was so cute....and funny.We rode home with bill (tamis bf) and kev and ed and me tami steph and christine in one car!...dont know how we fit....lol but we did....fun caotic ride home...lapsys...loud rap music with us whiiite ppl in the car..haha. Later on that night we hung out with them and some of tamis other friends...it turned out to be pretty fun..doubted it in the beginning cause i didnt know too many ppl but they were cool.We all just hung out....took some baad pics....like the horrible one of me my forhead look humungous..i looked so sad.Pretty funny..and ed refused to delete em..and how about that one with me and tami he closed up on our teeth???..yea....i duno.Today and tonight i have no idea whats going on...we'll see. I am so tired this morning i woke up round like 10.Alright i'm not going to bore you anymore.I"m done here.

<3MaryBeth

hi,

Today......hm..today was not my day.The same goes for last night. Me and steph once again hung out after school and we had our little talk in which we have everday telling eachother whats going on in our life...we talk about everything life love..guys ..u name it.We both were kinda of down in the dumps anyway yesterday but i am not gonna speak for her..but it made me feel like shit.....just like talking about stuff made me realize that i suck at most of the aspects of life. As u can see i am pretty miserable so basically nothing i am gonna talk about is going to be positive.It seems like this year is just NOT my year..or else it took me up until now to realize that i suck.I feel like nothing no nothing ever goes my way....and i know i am not the only one of my friend who has felt like this or feels like it...but it sure seems that way.Ispent alot of last night just crying...and crying. Everyday something disappoints me wether its friend just ppl in general or anything...like half the time i am pissed at myself. And this time i reeeally feel like its me.Some guys just have been asses all together..like I SUCK..REALLY... i have 4 stalkers 1 stalker kid today almost like foloowed me into the girls bathroom trying to get my #...weirdo...another kid has this huuge black kid come over to me to ask for my name cause "he wants to talk to me"..some shit like that...its just like one fag after another...yea theyre all ugly...but i am not shallow like that..its just just their looks i think i just attract like either werido loser kind of guys..or jerks..theres like no in between. But guys and all that jazz isnt even the half of it. I am like bever happy anymore...and it sucks...like the stupidesnt things piss me off..and its not just like oh its hormones or o your a teenager..or atleast it doesnt seem like that.Nothing lately satisfied me i always find something wrong with it..wether it be me ,guys in general....friends....family....I just walked around the hallways with this straight faced pissy look. There was no expression to my face at all...my friends of course knew something was up..but i didnt wanna get into it i didnt feel like talking about it..and just reliving it .I think the worlds plotting against me....gosh....hm lets go through this....i mostly attract weirdos...aside from a minor few, i'm ugly as sin,i dispise school, i suck in the love category..wow i think i am just gonna stop now..cause i could go on and on..........

<3me